I am a fucking woman!

I am a woman

I am a giant woman!

I used to think that weaker than war men with warrior arms

Even though they fell below my line of sight

I used to think I was intended delicate wings and slight of hand like pixy pretties

Not thighs of thunder and the presence of Poseidon

That weak heart 

Housed in a body many men could never fill

It felt a curse

As much a curse as the cumbersome costume that people see as me

Rolls and wrinkles

Scars and spots

Misery

Melancholy 

Morose self-loathing bullshit

I told that bollocks to fucking do one a while ago!

But…

I didn’t learn

I hadn’t learned at all!

I had no idea of how vast I was

I knew not that I was fucking epic

And I AM fucking EPIC!

I am a woman!

This body I’m told to loathe 

(Told from every route leading towards me)

This body is a miracle!

Love or hate it

Nurture or abuse it

It will take it all for as long as it can

Not like a flakey friend but like a guardian angel

It is like miraculous magic!

This body

This body that used to bother me because it wasn’t like many other women’s

Too much like a man’s but home to such small spirit

It is perfect

It is just the right size to house this powerhouse heart 

It loves constantly

Fights fiercely 

Protects powerfully

Laughs lovingly

And cries until it’s clean

I was never, ever, EVER meant to be small

I know that now!

I have scars telling stories of the battles I have won

That is not ugly

Survival, success and strength

They are fucking sexy!

I’ve had mascara run down my face from the oceans of tears I’ve leaked

But they didn’t drown me

Falling apart to get put back together 

Washing off a mask to reveal true beauty

Heart beauty

That is never weak!

This length and strength 

This presence and power

I possess them for a purpose 

This giant woman body was a gift

As much as was that tiny heart 

Now growing louder than eleven roaring lions

Becoming wider than Niagara Falls with power in greater measure

It is the universe!

It is fucking fierce!

I am fierce!

What is the power

The most destructive force on earth?

Fire

Roaring flames flickering ferociously

Devastating all that was

Making way for all that is

The power of nuclear warfare 

But only ever threat

Never launching into ugly existence 

Only warning

Like mother

‘You dare’

You knew what was coming if you dared…

Hell hath no fury like a woman scorned

Fury is the fire

And that fire?

It is love.

I am powerful.

I am a woman

I am a fucking woman!

A fierce fighter of a woman

Don’t fuck with me

My love can destroy all that you know